Today I had a FB request from a friend I have known in my school days.

I think friend is a misnomer here..it should be an aquaintance.

She was studying in the englsh medium with an attitude to match..and I was in the malayalam medium with hardly any attitude to compare..

Then she joined the malayalam medium in the 9th std. She was in my class..I was a loner and all the students in my class had their own groups and like me she was excluded. I felt sorry for her and tried to be her friend. She was everything that I wasn’t.. she was very good in sports, when every time I threw the javellin the earth’s gravity suddenly increases.. ( there is actually a comic strip by calvin and hobbes about gravity. Here)Ok, I was digressing.. Anyway..I was glad to finally have a friend..I remembered to give her b’day card on her b’day.( still do), helped her with home work.. when she was sick and missed school when we were in 10th, I went to her house after school and gave her my notes, so she could copy them.

Today I am officially divorced..

I am now among those who couldn’t make it work. I had promised to love and cherish till death did us apart and I didn’t keep my word.

I have no one to talk to,..

So here I am, officially a single mother of three..
So many dreams
so much of hope
wasn’t it Solomon who said sakalathum maya..
I am still where I have been all along..
Alone
craving for love
for someone to love me
care for me
be with me..
accept me for what I am..
sakalathum maya..
the pain.. it never goes away..