There is a monster in me. I know it is there and I am so helpless when it comes out..
I suffer from severe PMS and no one seems to understand it.
I have been told that I am using my PMS as an excuse.
I wish I could explain..
I am normally a very rational, calm person and all of a suddent I turn in to someone even I despise myself.
I get upset for every little thing.
I don’t think before I do anything
I shut myself out
I write letters full of vitriol
I drive so rashly that sometimes I am even scared to take the car out, cause there were times I have driven like a maniac.
But the worst is the anger.. it is like I am sitting on a pot over simmering fire..and any little thing is enough for me to burst..
My children have been living with me..and have learned to cope by ignoring me..
I know it isn’t fair to ask everyone in my life to understand that I go through this phase every month..
The hardest part is even when I know I suffer from PMS, there is nothing..absolutely nothing I can do to help me..