I am so bloody drunk…I am not even sure why I am trying to blog something when I am drunk.
It feels so good finally to just sit down and enjoy a bottle of vodka.
Tonite I don’t have to worry about drink driving
I don’t have to worry about what my children will think of me
I don’t actually have to worry about anything.. it has been so long since I felt that way..
So here is a cheers..
Tonite I shall drink myself to oblivion..and tomorrow when I have the worst hangover.. I shall tell myself.. it was worth it.. I hope i shall survive

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  1. Hope you are not too down.
    Cheer up (easy to say).

    Everyone has ups and downs. I feel for you dear Sara.

    To love is to give – and not to possess. You know love and you have given. Your definition (not as definition, but in the letter earlier posted) in giving what you have – all you have – is the ultimate love of man.

    Yet, I feel you being so distressed is part due to all that has been in the past and continuing in the present, are not easy to cope-with.

    I feel for you. Had I known you more, I could even love you more as a genuine human being – which I do as I write (Readers, please do not misunderstand).

    Self and temper due to reasons we do not know are not easy to control. Such is the trait within us.
    I had read what is posted below is in the Bible and I thought – what an excellent way to represent human depravity! WHAT IS WRITTEN IS TRUE FOR ME. CAN”T REALLY APPLY THAT FOR OTHERS AND DO NOT INTENDED SO EITHER.

    May be this will help you and if you like you may want to explore more in these chapters.

    Romans 7:14-25 (New International Version)

    14 We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[a] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
    21 So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22 For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23 but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. 24 What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? 25 Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
    So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in my sinful nature[b] a slave to the law of sin.

  2. Idicula: I am a practising Atheist.. I chose to be responsible for my own actions.
    I guess I had way too much of lemonade from all the lemons life threw at me.. so now am full of vodka..Life is beautiful!!

  3. No; I am neither attempting a preaching nor a ‘conversion’.

    Neither am I, the one able to do such.

    Just reading this passage really makes me think that, out there 2000 years ago, a man [Paul] wrote about what I go through today. Culture, changes in civilization, religion or the lack of it, educated or not, it seems we all have this issue in us. Well, let me just speak for me only. I do. Above all, regarding the literary quality – it is almost poetic – even unparalleled!

    Now that vodka has kicked in and Lemonade is gone, hope you are having dazzling dreams!

    [Did you really finish a whole bottle? Cool Goose? ?]

    Wish you peace.

  4. Idicula: My friends think that the best way for me to handle all my troubles is to get me stoned drunk.
    One bought Smirnoff's red.. another one makes his own moonshine and donated few bottles..then there is always the The creme Liquor and wine

    The last time I got this stoned was in 1994..

    It feels good..really good.. kind of I am in another universe.. i hate the thought that life will be back to same old come sunday!

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