My scan results shows the growth is benign and though the path reports will only be in next week, I am not worried.
All is well.
However, this has really been a wake up call. Being a Dr, I probably know better than anyone how important it is to see a Doctor when things go wrong and to have regular check up.
However, that isn’t true at all.
I last had a pap smear 4 years ago and though the clinic has been sending me reminders, I didn’t have time to go and get it done. Besides, I am not sure what to call this notion of ‘I am fine, nothing will happen to me’ that I suffer from.
I never had a mammogram and kept thinking about getting one done as I do have a family history of CA Breast. But again, I didn’t have time.
I have had pain on the left side of my tummy for few weeks, I had to get up in the middle of the night most nights to pee and instead of going to the clinic, I assumed I had UTI and drank cranberry juice. Even when the pain increased, I still didn’t go to the clinic, I went to my friend’s house to get a script for antibiotic and instead of a script, she gave me an earful.
Then everything happened really fast.
One of the advantages of being a doctor ( even when not practicing ) is that I didn’t have to wait long to get the scan done. Even then, the 5 minutes I waited while they were doing the paper work, felt like an eternity. I felt lonely and scared and more than anything, I was angry with myself because in my quest to be the best mom on earth, I didn’t have time for me and it was nothing but stupidity. My children really wouldn’t have minded if I didn’t take them for their game for a day and chose to go to the clinic and get a pap smear done..How selfish of me not to have taken care of myself?
So, if this has been a wake up call for me, I am hoping it would be for all of you as well.
Have you had a mammogram and pap smear?
Thank you all for the well wishes. It felt good to be loved so much.