This came as a shock and I contemplated if I should post it or not. As usual, writing helps me cope.
Tomorrow, I will be scanned and prodded to rule out ovarian cancer.
I have always led a healthy life. I ate nutritious food, maintained my weight, drank in moderation and exercised. The word cancer wasn’t even in my mind when I went to see my GP.
I am not afraid of death. for everyone dies one day. But right now, it is really inconvenient. I have so many places to go and so many things to do.
Few days ago, I was singing ” I am too sexy for my shirt” by Right said Fred and my son said jokingly “mom, I think we should so play this song for your funeral when the pall bearers carry the casket, I can bet with you that everyone will agree that song is so you”
It was not unusual to talk about the songs for funeral, I have always told my children that I want them to play IZ’s “somewhere over the rainbow” when I am buried.
Now I wonder was that a moment of nimitham?
I know tomorrow it can go two ways. I can either be totally healthy or dying and I am scared.