Christmas ws great. Santa came 10 mints after the kids went to bed. He gave the older one brat doll and a chess set, boy got a train set(7th one!!!) again and magnetix. Baby got a brat doll and dora the explorer. Mama got a weighing scale..to see how fat she is getting…

I also realized i am really growing old, ws in denial all the while. years ago, new years eve I used to worry more abt how to be “not drunk” and attend all the parties. Now i am beginning to act like my own mother. when i asked her wht is her plans for the new year, abt 15 yrs ago. She tilted her head to one side and sighed”oh wht is a new year..it is just another day!!!!’ This new year when my kids asked me I said the same dialogue without even realizing. Then it dawned to me, damn I am morphing in to wht i thought ws the worst of my mother and my kids would be thinking the same way abt me. But then again, I am really too old to party and I really don’t see any point in spending a huge amount of money just for dinner and a glass of cheap wine. So i hd a nice bottle of okanagan wine at home..
No resolutions either.. I am happy with all my imperfections.. so why change?