She and I, we were enemies.
She had everything I always wanted. Her parents were together, she had two older brothers and being the only daughter, she was pampered by everyone, even my grandmother! ( Maternal) As a child I never understood why my grandmother loved her more and not me.

We were girls, so why was she more cherished?

She hated me because my dad travelled to other countries and we always had foreign stuff. She hated me because I was good in my studies. She hated me because I had three sisters. She always wanted sisters! ( I never knew why and I had offered/requested/begged/cajoled her to take my sisters, but she wanted her own sisters!)

To make my life more miserable, she was the epitome of an Indian daughter. Very respectful of her elders, went to church, Started taking all the noimbu (fast) when she was 6 or 7 and could even stitch her own school uniform by the time she was 10.
Not enough, she had the hair clips my mother bought for her when she was about 7 years old till she went to University( perhaps for all I know she might even have it now) and I, lost the yellow colour sketch pen that was part of the 12 on the first day my mother bought it for me and went through tons of hair clips, erasers, etc etc.

You can only imagine my life being compared to her at every turn and how much I hated her.

Then again life has so much of twists and turns. She didn’t complete her studies, got married to a guy who squandered the family fortune, had a daughter, went back to her family home twice and was send back to her husband both times by her loving brothers and yesterday I was told that her family is so broke that they have no money for food.
Gibran’s writing about giving keeps coming to my mind.
A part of me thinks, she isn’t my responsibility. She has two brothers and umpteen number of cousins. I have just moved in to a new country, I have so much of expenses..

But someone not having food…Why is life so hard

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  1. HI there,

    I tried your orappam and thanks a lot for introducing us to this snack, which was completely new for us. I wonder if you got my mail. I've posted a picture of this snack with a link back to your recipe, since I was not sure if it looked similar to the real deal.

    If time permits, I would like to hear your feedback.


  2. Dear Nina,
    But you can always lend a helping hand of yours…More than her and others, you will feel good abt yourself… There was a sahatiya academy winner story in Tamil in which the lead lady will undergo all sorts of troubles by her husband and will be forcibly seperated from him.From that day she will live a life for others in the village…everyone will like her and still her ex husband will torment her…But finally her ex-husband will struggle with leprosy and the whole village will be suffering from drought…and no rains….everyone will do everything possible and the noble lady will also pray and do lot of nice things for rain gods to open up…but you know when it will rain….when she goes to her stranded ex husband and lift him up to bring him back to her hut the sky will open up. Itz upto u..if u decide against helping your cousin…and she is not your enemy but your biggest motivator as she always kept you on your toes.

  3. I feel I might agree with Jerry… May be I was always a stupid who always try to forgive everything. But this cousin was more like a motivation for you than serious enemy. Its long time. I hope everything fine @ your side.. Waiting for your new posts

  4. Hi Sarah,

    I am a regular reader of your blog….what happened…am eagerly waiting for your posts…What happened next to Nina Thomas?
    Take care and get back to blogging soon….

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