I want to go home

Home? You might ask which home?

Well technically it isn’t my home anymore.. It used to be my home at one time…I lived there when I was growing up, then I left and never once went back.

My aunt called me last evening to wish me happy birthday. I have not seen or spoken to her for 14 years, still she remembered my birthday and called me to wish me.
There is a wedding in the family, end of this month. Amma had told me about it and I told her I wasn’t going. I couldn’t imagine taking three kids to India( tickets alone would costs a fortune!)..

Then yesterday after I spoke to my aunt, there was an ache in the heart. I couldn’t sleep. I thought about all my cousins, my maternal grandmother(, my school, my college..travelling in the train..etc
How many times have I wished to go back home one last time..Just to visit all those places..
I kept postponing it.. When I had money, I had no time..I guess I always had one excuse or the other for not going back..
This time I want to go back home and see everyone and show my kids their great grandmother, my school, the church I used to attend etc..
How am I going to make 10000$ in three weeks?
Damn

11 thoughts on “I want to go home

  1. Happy birthday 🙂

    Then yesterday after I spoke to my aunt, there was an ache in the heart. I couldn’t sleep. I thought about all my cousins, my maternal grandmother(, my school, my college..travelling in the train..etc
    How many times have I wished to go back home one last time..Just to visit all those places..

    It’s exactly what I was feeling. And out of nowhere I started hearing ONV in my head on reading “How many times..”:

    Oru vattom koodi…

  2. Hi Sarah
    I dont even remember how I came across your blog. I read a single post and thats it…with in a week I read all your blogs from archives. You make a fine example of being magnanimous. I could relate to you in many situations. I hated my sisters before. But now I know they were not mean to me on purpose. When we are young it is always like me,me and myself. Only as we grow older or in my case when I lost my dear papa I realised the value of togetherness and making the most of the little time I am on this earth with my dear family and not letting petty things take over my life. I hope you sisters realized that too..Sorry I deviate.
    I admire you Sarah for your strength, for your kindness..for overcoming all the obstacles to achieve the position you are in now. Hope Yaya is feeling better.
    Oh..Did I tell you u are a great writer.. Sorry for the long post..

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