Me and god, we have personality clash. I have been raised in a very religious family. My sunday routine would be to get up at 6.30AM, walk to a pentecostal church 25 mints away from my home to attend their sunday school at 7 AM till 8.30 AM. My family aren’t pentecost, but my mom believed that no one teaches the bible better than the pentecost people and made all her kids attend the pentecost sunday school. After the sunday school I have to walk back to the church where my family goes to for the morning mass at 9 AM. Eventhough I can’t sing for peanuts, i was a member of the choir.( The only motivation for joining. christmas goodies after the carols!!!)After the service there would be choir practice till 12.30PM. By then the stomach would be singing songs as well. I haven’t had any food till now. So rush home, eat lunch, and then walk to the church again for our parish sunday school at 2PM. All in all I can certainly say that I really had a strong religious upbringing.
When I was little, God spoke to my mother. Everything that I wanted to do, mom would discuss with God. When i was 17 and wanted to go for a rock concert.. God spoke to my mom, that lots of people will be selling drugs and the cops would be there and I would certainly get in to trouble!!!!. What was worst is I already bought the ticket out of my allowance. Why couldn’t god tell me when I went to buy the ticket that he would be speaking to mom and they would decide that I shouldn’t go???
Now that I am matured(atleast have to act that I am!!) Me and god have sever communication problems. I have no idea what he is trying to tell me, and he has no idea what I want. I have been telling him I need a job(as though he doesn’t know), and he keeps sending me to interview after interview..Why can’t he just tell me what exactly he wants me to do, instead of this merry go round?
Daughters of Tomorrow
mmmm, brings memmories of my religious growth, protestent school,syrian roman catholic parents, married a orthodox girl, got thrown out of roman catholic church, now in lutherian country….!!
really really…sometimes wonder if we are believing or talking to Him at all by these wonderful branches!! haa…haa
It is so true. But when I was younger and when I have no ‘logic’ or ‘rhyme’, I never had any communication problems with God. But the older I get,the less blind in my blf I am, I am having severe connection problems. I remember when I was younger,all God needed was a lighted candle and 9 days of Novena for any wish to be granted.These days even 5 years of novenas are falling in deaf ears or I dont know whether it is because I am not speaking coherently. I heard a story about that. One lady was praying everyday to Mother Mary and one day Mother Mary finally appeared before her. And when Mother Mayr started to speak, the lady couldnt hear anything,all she heard was gibberish.After several attempts,she got angry with Mother Mary and told her “either you speak clearly or dont speak at all”.
Then Mother Mary responded saying,
“My child, this is the way you speak to me too. Not from your heart. If you speak from your heart in simple lanugage,I too can understand”
Maybe thats why God has all his communication channels open with little kids.
ronnie:those religious upbringing were the days eh?
LG:tht was inspiring.. Sometimes you just need to hear a few words