It is a month since I last saw him. On the positive side, I now only have to wait 3 years and 11 months.
Words can’t express how much I miss him..
Every morning when I wake up, I ask myself why do I miss this guy so much? I don’t really have an answer..
I miss waking up next to him and pretending to be still asleep, so he could make me the worst tea on planet earth. I love the way he whisper my name and try to wake me up. I love the smile on his face when he hands me the cup. I love the softness of his hands..
A very dear friend has been helping me a great deal to cope. Every morning when I think I can no longer take another breath, I call her and she often asks me
“So, what can you do for yourself the next hour?”
Once when I was visiting him, he was doing Sudoku while attending a business call. He did the hardest Sudoku in 18 minutes. I do play Sudoku, but usually it takes me a lot longer than an hour. So I told my friend when she asked me what can you do for yourself the next hour that I will do Sudoku. And I have been doing them the past one month. I can now do them in 20 minutes..
I am yet to go to a lot of places that we used to go to. I don’t think I can handle that.. Next week, my Uni will start, which is another thing I am not sure how to cope.. I used to see him everyday after my Uni lessons..
Yesterday after seeing me cry, my youngest asked me..”mom, do you ever wish that you never met him?”
I told her, how can I ever regret meeting a guy who made me feel like a princess every second of my life…