Ok, now that is the truth..
It is going to be year since I saw/spoke/heard from my mother.
To be honest, I have no idea where she is..
I will have to contact one of my sisters to find out where is my mother staying now..
Truth be told.. the last one year of living without my mother was pure bliss..
I didn’t have to do anything to get her attention
I didn’t have to do anything to please her.
I didn’t have to worry about her trying to humiliate me
I lived with no guilty feelings..
Yet this morning I woke up thinking about her, wondering if she is ok..
Soon I know I will call her..
She probably knows that as well..
I wonder what is this connection a mother has with her children.. that how much ever you hate her..you still miss her and you hate yourself for your inability to walk away from someone who brings nothing but misery.