A friend committed suicide.
I stayed away from the blog the past few days hoping that my anger will subside.
But it hasn’t.
I am still angry.
If there is one thing I do know, it is despair. I have been there.. in the throes of despair.. so many times.
Most of my battles, I fought alone. Apart from my kids, I don’t even have any family. But there was one thing I never forgot, that even in the darkest moment, even when I felt there was no point in taking another breath..that I chose to have three kids and they don’t deserve the heartache of the knowledge that their mother took her own life.
My friend’s son is in grade 12 this year. A bright intelligent boy and the past few days he has been drunk..to the point of exhaustion.Last year, he wanted to go to Caltech to study. This year, he hasn’t stopped crying.
Because she was a single mom, her son has no where to go. All of a sudden he is an orphan. I have offered a place for him to stay. But I know I can’t fill the void in his life, especially at this crucial period of his life.
As I have always written what I really felt in this blog and I know what I am going to write next is going to piss many of you. I don’t care.
My friend was incredibly selfish. Trust me, I know how life can wear you down. But she forgot, her son didn’t ask to be born. She made that choice and she made the choice to abandon him when he needed her the most.
If you are depressed, or if you feel like giving up the fight
First . you are not alone. There are so many people who love you and care for you.
Go to a doctor, ask for help. Call one of those helplines.. Do something.
Taking your life is not the solution to your problems.