I can write a 20000 words assignment on medical related topics. I can even do a book review, but when it comes to love and expressing my love, I am hopeless. Why? I don’t know. It is like there this great wall that separates my feelings and what I can do with words. I love to make the words dance with my feelings..but sometimes.. I just can’t
Today is a very important day for me. Today is Zahir’s birthday. And I wanted to tell him how much I love him. I tried to write and this is what I could write.
Here it goes
There is a legend about a bird which sings just once in its life, more sweetly than any other creature on the face of the earth. From the moment it leaves the nest it searches for a thorn tree, and does not rest until it has found the perfect one. Then singing among the savage branches, it impales itself upon the longest, sharpest spine. And, dying, it rises above its own agony to out-carol the lark and the nightingale. One superlative song, existence the price. But the whole world stills to listen, and God in His heaven smiles. For the best is only bought at th cost of great pain…or so says the legend.(C McCullough)
The bird with the thorn in its breast, it follows an ageless, constant law, It has to, rather it must find its own thron tree for it to complete what it came to this world to do. Once the thorn pierces its breast, it sings and sings till there is no more song and die singing.
I have often wondered would I do such a thing if it was going to cause my own extinction. Was the price of the most beautiful song worth the costs?
The thing is, I always felt that the song I came to sing remains unsung ( Tagore)
I so very badly wanted to sing the song from my heart. But I could never sing. The song was surely there, but it was missing the thorn.
But we all need to sing our song. That is the most basic irrevocable law. We keep searching for our own thorn trees. We have to, because the song need to be sung, must be sung.
I chose to love you, not for any reason but for love.When I put the thorn in my breast, I knew. I understood what it is going to cost me.and I still did it.
I gave you my heart and my soul. Because that is what I want..
You are the reason I can sing the most melodious song. Your presence in my life has borught so much joy and happiness.
My love for you is not like anyother. The love that I have for you is from my soul,
I have nothing worldly to give you, but I can give you a gift that no one can ever give.
That is “ME”..
On your birthday, I hope you will hear the song from my soul and know that you are being loved more than anything and anyone.
I want to smack my head for the lousy way this letter has turned out. Bt I know, you know what I mean.
I LOVE YOU.